Hey everybody!
So this blog post will be exactly what the title says it will be about: blog choices and happy meals. I feel like happy meals are the less important of these two subjects so that is what I'm gunna start with. Roomie and I just got back from McDonald's where we both had happy meals and got some kick ass toys. I know you're thinking, "but University Girl! It's after 4am! Why would you go at 4am????" Well we didn't go at 4am, we actually left at just after 3am, so it's not as bad, we just stayed because there were a couple babe-licious University-looking guys also at the McDonalds. hahaha and to answer your original question.... we went because I was starving!!!!!! DUH!!! But I guess that's what I get for only having a grilled cheese with tomato for dinner. :P This timing was probably not one of my wisest life choices though as I have a very long day ahead of me once I wake up, in approximately five and a half hours (have to meet up with a couple people from drama to finish a script around ten thirty, class at twelve thirty-five and then prison ministry from six fifteen until nine thirty-ish!!!!!!!) AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But that serves as a nice segue into my life choices portion of this blog post......
Ok so it's about the time of year where us University students are registering for next year and figuring all of that out, but here is the thing..... I really don't know what to do next year. The school I go to is super duper expensive, but I love it, but Crazy J and a couple of my other friends most likely won't be coming back and idk if I really want to either. I was talking to a really good friend of my mom's, who is like an aunty to me, (let's call her Frostie) about all this and she really helped me sort through all my feelings about this upcoming year. The more I think about it, the more I realize I am only attending University for three main reasons as of right now and those three reasons are: 1.School is all I've ever known so it seems logical to continue it (and I really do find a couple of my classes super interesting.) 2. Pressure- whether it's from my mom or just what everyone else expects me to. and 3. Obligation- and this is the biggest problem I have. I am realizing that all those times when I was debating whether to go to school or not and all of that my biggest factor in the decision that I made was that ever since I got this vision of the shelter I want to introduce I have felt ridden by guilt at the even thought of doing anything else with my life and Frostie helped me to realize that I can't let guilt, obligation, expectations (by myself or others), or anxiety should be major factors in what I decide to do and that I still have lots of time to figure it out (I'm only turning twenty this coming June!!!) So the more I have been thinking about all this the more I realize that although classes are interesting and the extra curricular activities I partake in are absolutely amazing.... I just feel like I'm tied down to University and the more I think about moving out and into this city, getting a job or two and really exploring and researching different organizations and options the more excited I get, the less anxiety I feel pushing down on my shoulders, and the more free (as well as less constricted) I feel. And the more I realize that I need to stop living my life the way everyone else expects and wants me to and more for myself (making choices that I won't feel tied down to for the rest of my life.) Although the thought of trying to find a place to live and a job and moving away from my family and hometown scares the $hit out of me, I feel like I will also feel more free to really explore who I am and who I want to be as well as taking in new experiences that I have always wanted to do, such as running the "Run or Dye" and volunteering at the Fringe Festival! I still have to talk this out with my mom and figure out whether it truly is what I want I feel a lot of weight lifting off my shoulders already. Wish me luck and/or pray for me!!!!
All my love,
University (for now) Girl ;)
P.S thanks for sticking with me and my silly little blog everybody who is reading this :)
