Happy Halloween Ladies and Gents!!!

HEY EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S HALLOWEEN!!!!!! WOO!!!!! I was so pumped for tonight haha!!! I did up ma weave and ma makeup, got ma grad dress on, and put a really pretty mask on then just partied it up hehe. My university had a talent show and a dance that were both pretty fleepin awesome! Crazy J and I rocked the heck out of the dance :P!! We were just leaving when we heard Soulja Boy come on, so we stopped where we were and started crankin dat thang hahahahaha which was super fun and we got some funny looks, but then.... just as we reached the elevator doors and were waiting for them to arrive we continued dancing like crazy people and jumping around in circles and stuff, I jumped around and saw Smiles walking towards us hahahahahaha talk about embarrassing!!!! (P.s if you haven't guessed my last post may be slightly inaccurate, I am not able to get over this guy that fast hah.) But anyway, I had been dancing the night away, not really doing anything embarrassing and didn't see him all night, then two minutes in to a ridiculous dance.... of course decides to show up!!! goodness gracious! So, I get back to my dorm after the dance and chill around for a bit, take some selfies with Crazy J, then she leaves and I figure out there is no comfortable way to sit in my too-tight-corset-back dress that I am now stuck in if I don't get any assistance, but I lost Crazy J! So I wound up, unlacing my own back with one hand, which was very tricky, in order to get out of that crazy tight, but awesome, dress! So I did a quick change into a potential outfit for going out for Roomie's 18th b-day tomorrow and went into Stud and his roommates room to get their opinion, only his roommate was there (we're pretty cool with each other) so I asked him if he thought it was a good choice for the club tomorrow and he said "yeah, looks good, I'd tap that," hahaha then we started awkwardly laughing cuz it was so strange and I said I was just gunna walk out of the room and pretend that that didn't happen haha. So many awk moments today haha, oh and Stud called me by my roommates name!!!! How ridiculous is that????? Ouch Stud, Ouch! But I think I will go see what movies everyone is watching! I'll catch ya on the flipside folks!!!

Much love,

University Girl ;)

here is a selfie of Crazy J and I! Enjoy ;)

Craziness!!!

Well hey there!!! 

Crazy J has been yelling at me daily for not writing any posts lately and I am super wide awake and have obtained the blogger app on my iPod so I don't have to be on my laptop to blog!!!! Ok guys, I got some seemingly sad news, essentially, I have given up on Smiles, he's way to out of my faith league and I feel if we ever got together it would just go badly because of how different our views and experiences are. I suck at pursuing guys anyway, it's not super sad for me, just don't see a point in going after something that would so obviously not work out. I still think he's super cool and good looking, but i could never see anything happening between us. An example of this is last Friday night haha.  

I had an absolute blast on Friday night!!! Went out to a club with Crazy J and a couple guy friends and had an absolutely amazing time, I got completely wasted, but it was super fun and I was basically worry free and just danced and talked to random funny guys and just had an all around good time, and I'm pretty sure Crazy J had a pretty great night too. ;) she has definitely earned that code name!!!! 

I have been spending a lot of time on Skype lately and I have decided I have a love-hate relationship with it haha. I obviously love it because I get to see and talk to people I don't get to see very often, (like my mom, my best friend, and a couple other people that really mean a lot to me)  but I hate it because it makes me miss them and want to actually be with them way more than I realized!!!! I miss my crazy bonkers twin so much and  I just can't wait to give her a giant hug, but I have to until Saturday when we both go home!!!! And Skype also makes me realize I miss chillin with my mom, which she is coming to visit on Thursday so I'm super excited!!! Makes me remember all the good times I had with people I didn't always think were necessarily my friends and makes me try and wish certain people back into my life. 

The last one really has me twisted and I know what my crazy bonkers twin will say when she reads this, but I gotta get it off my chest. I have been skyping this one guy that I've known for so long and he's been my best guy friend for years and when I talk to him and see him smirking at me it gets me wishing for the old times and wishing that him and I could somehow work out long term, but we both know it could never happen because he's a very independent guy, who doesn't always make the right choices, and loves to spontaneously move and travel to wherever he pleases, while I am mostly a stay in one place, settle down, attempting to make good choices kinda girl. I'm the only girl who had ever made this tough guy nervous and he's the only guy I've never been nervous around. That seems like something special, but the differences in our lifestyles and choices are far to great for anything to ever work out in the long term scheme of things, but we do have the deal that if neither of us are with someone when we're 40, we are getting married. This deal will most likely be forgotten though and it all just seems so.... tragic to me I guess. I know this seems like I'm writing some cheesy tragic love tale, but in reality there is always gunna be a place in my heart for him and I know that's never gunna change. 

I feel like I need some girl talk haha I'm sure ill wind up talking about all this with my crazy bonkers twin when I go see her this weekend cuz I know she has some stuff she needs to talk about to. Ill also be planning a girls night slumber party type thing for all us girls who are friends to get together and just be typical girls. hahahaha. Well that's all for now folks, I'll keep in touch!!

All my love,

University Girl ;)

Tea, Cookies, Chocolate and..... Loneliness?

Hey all you blog readers!!!

I'm super bored so I'm just gunna ramble. Crazy J, Logic, Crazy J's not-so-secret-ex-lover, and Roomie are all gone to other places today and I think Stud may be too. All this makes me very sad, lonely and bored, thus why I am "enjoying" tea, chocolate and cookies.... alone. I think once I am finished with this post, I may just curl up on my bed and watch some Die Hard!!! Yay! Too bad I have no one to enjoy it with. :P Random thought: Smiles is doing something new with his hair and it is definitely working!!! Stud was right when he asked if I meant the guy with the sexy blonde hair. haha. But, anyway, I'm so bored this evening, it's like I don't know what to do with my life, I don't really have many upcoming assignments and I'm done with this round of midterms.... it's definitely a strange sense of freedom mixed with the realization that I have no social life haha. #bloglife! Tomorrow will most likely consist of me attempting to keep myself busy by attending all the different sports games tomorrow, probably by myself, unless I find someone I know who is going... that would be lovely! Maybe, I'll see if Smiles is going ;) spend some quality time together ;) ;) hahahahahahahahhahahah I'm so funny! It feels weird putting winks beside that, because he seems almost untouchable because of how into God he is, like I feel if we were ever to happen (which will never happen) I would just feel weird and it would be completely different than my other boyfriends. almost like he's out of my spiritual league, you know what I mean? and also I'm a horrible person to watch sports with cuz I get way too intense and into the game, especially when it's a sport I've played before... which is every sport this school has haha. I suppose this is where I'm gunna end this post, for now, maybe I'll add more later, after  Die Hard!!!

Love you all,

University Girl ;)

Now Let Me See You Zumba!!!

HEY EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So.... Crazy J and I went to zumba tonight, super fun, but not so wise decision. haha. All I ate today was a muffin and a salad, and I definitely didn't drink enough water, with my potassium deficiency  and with how easily I become dehydrated, working out on an empty stomach is a really horrible idea! I was good right up until ten minutes before it ended, we were doing the cool down stretches and I started not being able to see straight and all I could really hear was a ringing in my ears, which are indicators that I'm about to faint if I don't sit down. Luckily I made it to a water fountain before that happened though! :) Up until that point, Zumba was actually really fun, I got to shake my hips and such a lot, which you may know is definitely my favorite way to dance!!! The steps were fairly easy and Crazy J kept making me laugh with all the silly faces she was pulling haha. At one point we were shakin it around and like turning in circles and as I was turning around I saw someone picking up some boxes from a table in the back of the room and kinda laughing as he left.  Of course, Smiles, of all people would be the one to walk in when I'm doing Zumba haha lookin ridiculous and sweaty! I'm just hoping he didn't spot me!
But hey guys.... GUESS WHAT TOMORROW IS!!!!!!! IT'S WEDNESDAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOO WOOO!! I love me some Wednesdays haha. But I gotta go now, sorry for the short post tonight, but I thought Zumba was very blogworthy! Oh and Crazy J and I decided we are gunna apply at the Boston PIzza down the street! yay!!!! Anyway, I gotta get started on a rough draft outline for an English paper coming up!

All my love,


University Girl ;)))) ;))))



Oh and don't forget, there are only two rules in Zumba: 1. You have to sweat. and 2. You have to smile!

Thankful :P

Hello All,

I just wanna start off by saying how incredibly thankful I am for my crazy bonkers twin bestie!!! She's just the bestest ever, I know we fight a lot and sometimes we make each other cry, but I know I couldn't do it without her beside me and that she's been like a second parent to me at the same time as being the best friend I've ever had and the sister I never had! So thanks my incredible gorgeous brown eyed baby girl!

I started this post like that because she helped me fight tears tonight without even being in the same city!!! I was really sad about some stuff that I found my mom had written that was really really sad, as well as being extremely worried about her going to nova scotia today to support her psycho, mentally unstable, abusive ex when he goes to his uncles funeral, as well as being super stressed about money and figuring out where and how I'm gunna work so I don't go flat broke!!! Needless to say, I'm fairly stressed. Being so stressed and kinda feeling like I was gunna cry, I picked up my favorite teddy bear and we sat on my bed and looked out the window at my view of the city for a bit, cuz that's what we always do when I'm sad. Then I wandered over to Stud's room and silently chilled with him while he organized his papers and read a book, I just kept hiding my face behind my teddy so he couldn't tell I was secretly crying the few tears that I couldn't hold back as I texted my crazy bonkers twin, telling her what was wrong. Then she told me that she kik messaged me some pictures to my ipod, so when Roomie entered Studs room I quietly got up and left to check them, still fighting tears. I got back to my room and opened up kik on my ipod, I started scrolling through all the pictures and I can genuinely say they made me smile, she always knows exactly what to send t lift my mood right out of the valleys!!!! This being thanksgiving weekend, I want to repeat how thankful I am that this incredible girl is in my life!!!! She's saved my life so many times, and nothing can tear us apart!

All my love,

University Girl





p.s on a totally unrelated note, I think Logic may like me.... awk.

#bloglife

hey guys,

First of all, let me explain that the title is only #bloglife because I have no idea what to call it and I'll prob just ramble for a bit anyway!

TBH I miss having a boyfriend, not any of my exes in particular because I know all those relationships ended for good reasons, but I miss having someone to run up to and just kiss when I'm super happy cuz that's what I like to do, haha but the thing I miss most is just having someone to cuddle all the time! Goodness I miss cuddles :( I can't even cuddle my crazy bonkers twin cuz I'm here in University and she's back home (best sick and sleepy cuddles are from my bestie!!!!) But ya, legit I just wanna cuddle.... like all the time!!! I usually just wind up leaning my head on people a lot if I'm sleepy or cold and I don't think Stud or Crazy J mind, if they do they haven't said anything haha. Lots of the time I just wanna curl up in someone's arms though, cuz when I lived back home I had access to constant cuddles between my now and ex and my crazy bonkers twin, I always had someone to cuddle, then I moved here and I got nobody....sigh! Cuddles are obviously one of my favorite things, cuz they are so safe and warm and its like no bad things can reach you, but whatevs I'll just cuddle when I visit my bestie or when she visits me! Wow I said cuddle a lot in that paragraph. haha.

Moving on..... I really have always wanted to learn how to do different ballroom dances, I bring this up because Stud was displaying all his ballroom dancing skills last night when we were chillin with Crazy J! He had way too much energy and showed us a bunch of different dances, using his sweater as a dance partner. I'm definitely debating making him teach me how haha he said he would today, but I don't think he actually meant it. Maybe I'll just tell him he owes me because of how often I help him with theology and how much food and such he takes, hehe. Crazy J and I are also looking into pole dancing fitness classes because it looks like so much fun, if only it wasn't so expensive and/or I wasn't so broke. haha we'll prob wind up doing it eventually. It shall be a grand and wonderful time!

On a side-note, I feel like God is really stirring up something in my life, I haven't really mentioned it before cuz I have no idea what it is, but there is definitely something amazing coming my way!!!! I'll keep you posted blog land, but I have class in 7 hours and I prob shouldn't skip so I'm hittin the sack! Good night everyone :* mwah!!!!

All my Love,

University Girl ;)

Walkin' On Sunshine!!! :D

ok, so, I should definitely be studying psych for my midterm tomorrow, but I am in way to good of a mood not to BLOG IT UP right now!!!!! hahahahahaha  
ya know how I have said that Wednesdays are my completely absolutely favorite day of the week???????? WELL IT'S STILL TRUE!!!! Chapel today was really cool and wonderful, it involved pictures of cute babies and a new way of doing communion and someone doing the moonwalk... I know you're completely jealous that I got to go and you weren't there!!!! Alpha was also super cool, we talked about the cross and about forgiveness, which can be a very difficult subject for me because of my difficulty with J. Doe. but I still thoroughly enjoyed the talk and then something crazy happened at the end of the meeting! Backstory: usually when I enter or leave a room/meeting/class/service I kinda glide in and out unnoticed by anyone.) but, here's the crazy thing, I got up to leave cuz it was over and everyone was talking so I decided it was time to go, but as I left I felt a hand on my shoulder, and heard a "have a good night, Carly" and it was the student leader of alpha who interrupted the conversation he was in, just to tell me to have a good night! I know it doesn't seem like a big deal to you, but it definitely shocked me cuz I'm used to being invisible, I suppose. And guess what else I did today???????? 937!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOO!!!!! The worship songs were super amazing and the talk was on not keeping material things as numero uno in your life, but letting God come first, then we wrote things we were thankful for on a couple pieces of poster board, I wrote "funny faces+ laughter", and then they threw candy at us, which of course I got hit with multiple caramels, one actually dented itself when it hit my foot. Then after, Logic and I helped point out caramels to Smiles, who wound up with about a dozen of them!!! Then Logic and another guy left so I just chilled and talked and hung out with a guy from Bible study, a guy off my floor and Smiles!!!! It was absolutely wonderful and I basically danced and twirled and smiled myself back to my dorm room, where I obviously turned on "Walkin' On Sunshine" and just jammed out by myself, with one of the biggest smiles ever on my face!!! Then sat down at my laptop and just started typing!!! Stud took a break from studying to come get some juice and he obviously figured out why I was so happy and we air high fived cuz I told him I'm blogging! haha yay for dubfs!!!! Also I gotta share stuff with you!!! Stud has also decided that he is gunna be my father figure so I guess I'm going to have to figure out how to get married without dating, as that is one of his rules for me, I'm not allowed to date until I'm married...... I still dunno how that's gunna go, someone, I think it was crazy J, said that means I'm gunna have an arranged marriage? Stud, you're gunna have to help me out here. haha. maybe with that guy you said made your heart skip a beat when he SMILEd at you????? hehehehehehe jk...... or am I?????  haha idk what else to say in this post, it may just be the longest one I've typed!!!! :O
 That's all folks!!!
all my love,


University Girl ;)

Perfectly Deceived

The title of this blog post comes from an English project I did in grade twelve, some friends and I made a movie where nothing was as it seemed and everyone was leading some sort of double life, I think this describes my university experience so far fairly accurately. The people I thought would be my besties... well turns out it's not what I expected. One unloads her sob story of a life to everyone she talks to and is constantly reminding everyone of her hardships to the point where nobody wants to hear about it anymore and it drives me crazy! Part of her story is how she has a job, goes to treatments, AND is taking six classes so the typical reaction she gets from people is one of awe at how hard she works and how strong she is, in reality I know she is constantly calling in sick to work, she skipped her last treatment and she never goes to class because she manipulates her teachers into feeling bad for her and constantly giving her extensions and not caring that she doesn't show up to class. I am constantly fighting myself because of how unfair this is, I am here busting my a$$ to get the best marks I can get as well as trying to serve and keep up with my faith life all while fighting to keep my depression from re-entering my life, but nobody feels bad for me because a) I don't want them to and b) I don't go putting my hardships on display to get attention and pity from everyone around me! Ugh!!! She's driving me crazy! And then there is the one person who I thought "hey maybe I'll get to be really good friends with them and we can be there to help each other out or chat or whatever." I was wrong again, guys! :/ This person just uses me for quiz answers and the food in my cupboard, they don't really give a damn about what's going on in my life, especially if this person's friends are waiting or they feel they have something better to do or maybe I just bore them, who knows? Needless to say I'm trying to build friendships with people who actually seem to care and just sit in my room wishing for a couple of my old friends from back home, I miss them so much, at least back home I knew who was there for me and who had more important things. Needless to say, my depression isn't getting much better, but I am fighting it still cuz I refuse to let these people drag me back into that seemingly eternal dark valley of self harm and hatred. I can't go back there. Anyway, that's gotta be all for now, I have lots of work and studying to do, I'm in the middle of midterm season! Wish me luck and prayers are appreciated!

Sincerely,
University Girl

You Know I'd Walk A Thousand MIles....

...... If I could just see you...... TONIGHT!!!!!

Hahaha oh man, I'm hyper!!!! I was having a pretty decent day, history was incredibly boring, but that's to be expected! hehe and I always enjoy psychology so you know it was wonderful! :) I'm quite enjoying the blog life!!! I had a badly timed nap though. haha :P It was at like six oclock and I definitely didn't plan it, but I cuddled into my blankets when I was cold and kinda passed out! Whoops :P I woke up like an hour later, but its ok cuz now i'm writing this blog post for all you lovely readers, yay me! haha ok ummm so I got some news today, my one guy friend (who actually kinda forced making out on me and other things but then I forgave him so we're ok now) got kicked out of residence!!!!!! that's insane and now he has to find a new place to live!!! I'm sure he'll be ok though :) Anyway I missed my d.u.b.f today!!!! It was so sad, no university day is complete when I don't see Stud! But, guess what!!! He came back tonight, haha he was clearly surprised at how excited I was, but my day just didn't seem finished until I got to see him! and also my crazy bonkers twin bestie is coming to stay in my dorm this weekend!!!!! WOOOOOOO!!!!!!! I love my besties! They are wonderful! Also, my other buddy Crazy J helped pick out an outfit to wear tomorrow so that makes me feel great cuz tomorrow is Wednesday and Wednesdays are my absolute favorite!!! Cuz they are my busiest day which can also be my most overwhelming, but I totally love it!!!! I will definitely most likely be doing a blog post tomorrow after 937!!! WOOT WOOT!!! i'm hyped right the eff up!!!! I've had so many hugs today and I love it! other than that my day has been pretty extremely boring, as I was not motivated to do anything!!!! OH except I went and got ice cream from a cold stone creamery with my aunty and just visited with her for like three hours! It was lovely! :) Anyway good night my lovelies and studlies, hugs and loves!!!!!

-University Girl