Crazy J has been yelling at me daily for not writing any posts lately and I am super wide awake and have obtained the blogger app on my iPod so I don't have to be on my laptop to blog!!!! Ok guys, I got some seemingly sad news, essentially, I have given up on Smiles, he's way to out of my faith league and I feel if we ever got together it would just go badly because of how different our views and experiences are. I suck at pursuing guys anyway, it's not super sad for me, just don't see a point in going after something that would so obviously not work out. I still think he's super cool and good looking, but i could never see anything happening between us. An example of this is last Friday night haha.
I had an absolute blast on Friday night!!! Went out to a club with Crazy J and a couple guy friends and had an absolutely amazing time, I got completely wasted, but it was super fun and I was basically worry free and just danced and talked to random funny guys and just had an all around good time, and I'm pretty sure Crazy J had a pretty great night too. ;) she has definitely earned that code name!!!!
I have been spending a lot of time on Skype lately and I have decided I have a love-hate relationship with it haha. I obviously love it because I get to see and talk to people I don't get to see very often, (like my mom, my best friend, and a couple other people that really mean a lot to me) but I hate it because it makes me miss them and want to actually be with them way more than I realized!!!! I miss my crazy bonkers twin so much and I just can't wait to give her a giant hug, but I have to until Saturday when we both go home!!!! And Skype also makes me realize I miss chillin with my mom, which she is coming to visit on Thursday so I'm super excited!!! Makes me remember all the good times I had with people I didn't always think were necessarily my friends and makes me try and wish certain people back into my life.
The last one really has me twisted and I know what my crazy bonkers twin will say when she reads this, but I gotta get it off my chest. I have been skyping this one guy that I've known for so long and he's been my best guy friend for years and when I talk to him and see him smirking at me it gets me wishing for the old times and wishing that him and I could somehow work out long term, but we both know it could never happen because he's a very independent guy, who doesn't always make the right choices, and loves to spontaneously move and travel to wherever he pleases, while I am mostly a stay in one place, settle down, attempting to make good choices kinda girl. I'm the only girl who had ever made this tough guy nervous and he's the only guy I've never been nervous around. That seems like something special, but the differences in our lifestyles and choices are far to great for anything to ever work out in the long term scheme of things, but we do have the deal that if neither of us are with someone when we're 40, we are getting married. This deal will most likely be forgotten though and it all just seems so.... tragic to me I guess. I know this seems like I'm writing some cheesy tragic love tale, but in reality there is always gunna be a place in my heart for him and I know that's never gunna change.
I feel like I need some girl talk haha I'm sure ill wind up talking about all this with my crazy bonkers twin when I go see her this weekend cuz I know she has some stuff she needs to talk about to. Ill also be planning a girls night slumber party type thing for all us girls who are friends to get together and just be typical girls. hahahaha. Well that's all for now folks, I'll keep in touch!!
All my love,
University Girl ;)
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