Sad Night

Hello Friends!

I had a fairly decent day that is ending a somewhat sad, lonely night.

I'll start with the good, ok so our university held a big conference that we had to go to and listen to this guy speak about technology becoming so advanced that in the near(ish) future there is a possibility that we will become immortal by transferring our consciousness to computers that will continue forever. It was somewhat interesting, but I was super tired, I attended all day yesterday and decided I would only go to the first seminar thingy this morning then just skip the rest of the day and spend it napping and such. I hung out with my super great friend, Stud, for a bit. I told him about this blog last night and he is desperately trying to figure out who codename: Smiles is and it's really quite entertaining!!!! Hi, Stud, good luck figuring it out! :P Speaking of Smiles, I got to see him multiple times today, including our first small group Bible Study meeting!!! It was good, I'm getting better at finding my voice when he's around. Yay me!
Anyway, Roomie and I got al dressed up, took a bunch of selfies and danced around our room today, needless to say, I was in a really good mood! :P She signed us up for an open mic thing that's taking part next week, which would be cool....... IF I DIDN'T GET CRAZY STAGE FRIGHT WHEN I'M IN FRONT OF ANYONE!!!!!! So, ya I'm freaking out about that! I also met roomies boyfriend, who is a dick, ( sorry for being rude, but he really is.)

The sad part of my night came shortly after she left with him, I've basically just chilled by myself since then and that gives me way too much time to think about sad things. :( One example of these sad things would be that I definitely have little, to no, shot with Smiles. He's way too focused on all his responsibilities (not saying that's bad at all), I get too nervous to talk to him, and we aren't even the same year in school! No chance.... sigh! Also I don't really see myself as something anyone would pursue, and since I'm too nervous to really talk with him, I'm screwed. What do you do when you want something to happen so bad, but you know it won't? Please tell me.

That's all I got for now, sorry I jump around so much.
All my love,

University Girl