Tired of It

Ok so first I'll start with saying I'm super excited for Christmas and singing Christmas carols at 937 today brought back lots of memories of singing at the hospital in my town every year as well as a couple of my teachers in junior high singing jamacaiian style "go tell it on the mountain." 

That's good stuff, but I'm actually just really pissed right now. (Sorry for any bad language in this post.) Because I'm so sick and tired of these bullshit guilt trips and manipulation!!!! For example, I'm pretty sure my "father" has just decided to make it a tradition to lay a good old Christmas guilt trip on me.... NEWS FLASH JOHN this is exactly why I still haven't talked to you!!!!!! Another example, my effing roommate guilted me into taking her to McDonald's at one in the morning (an hour ago) when I had already informed her I was tired and in a lot of pain!! Her answer was that she was hungry and if I didn't drive her she would just drive herself, after having a couple drinks tonight and not actually being allowed to drive due to the fact she should be wearing a knee brace!!!! Ugh!!!!!! I'm just so done with these guilt trips! If I wanted to be manipulated I would have stayed with my ex!!!!!! And if i wanted people to make me feel like shit i would just resume talking with my "father's" side of the family because they do a damn good job!!!!!!!!!! i sure as helldon't  need it from anyone else, i've got enough guilt tripping and manipulation in my very own family, I don't need it everywhere else, thank you very much! I generally don't like talking about myself but if these people asked how I was doing every once and a while it would be effing lovely!!!! Ugh ok rant over. 

I'll end with something both funny and awkward.... Last week I had four nights in a row where I dreamt about making out with lions den!!!!!! So weird! Also he's generally the person who wakes me up so he can borrow my card to get food so I was instantly forced to transfer between a dream where I was making out with him to actually having a normal conversation with him haha I'm just glad I haven't had those dreams in a while!!! Also I am thoroughly enjoying all my chill time with Crazy J, when it's just me and her, we have lots of rants and such and it's all great good fun! But that's all for now folks!

Sincerely,

University Girl ;)