Some New Ramblings

Hey there readers!
So... I have no idea where this blog post is gunna go, I just feel like rambling and that I haven't been keeping y'all up to date, and that's unfair. Ok... I'll just start typing anything that pops into my head about my life lately.
First of all, I went home for the weekend and actually had a super good time, thanks to my crazy bonkers twin. :) We had a super stereotypical girls night and it was wonderful! We went out for supper with a couple of our friends then the two of us went back to my house and did face masks, toenails with foot massages, listened to music, talked about boys, read Cosmo and 17 magazine and drank some pina colada breezers.... SO YUMMY! Oh and then once we had fallen asleep I was talking in my sleep about how I thought she was upset and I actually woke her up, but she didn't realize I was sleeping so she got super worried and wound up waking me up. After that we wound up not being able to fall back asleep until about 7:30 because I kept rambling about "Peches and Pers" ( like peaches and pears but in that ermahgerd sort of way!) as well as rewriting the song roar so it was about penguins instead and sayin "YEAH BOYSSSS!! a lot! haha yeah.... I was a little more than a little bit overtired.
So there is one thing I haven't really talked about in this blog at all.... until NOW! and that is that I absolutely have no feelings for Smiles anymore, we even have bible study, prison ministry, and class together and I feel absolutely nothing for him, there was absolutely no connection between us, that's what made me having such a wild crush on him so absolutely ridiculous! But you guys kinda already knew that, here's the news.... I found someone who I actually do connect with, it was almost instantaneous. It all really started when we saw each other at a bar we were at and just started dancing together, he got my number from a friend of his after we had left and well... we've been talking ever since. He wrote me a super amazing poem, I read it all the time, but I can't show you guys, I was specifically told I couldn't show anyone, not even Crazy J! But yeah... you guys can trust me, it's beautiful. We've hung out a few times since then, always during the wee hours of the morning and we just sit and talk, well he talks, I mostly just laugh a lot. He actually mentions how all I do is laugh almost every time we hang out haha. He's probably one of the most intriguing people I've ever met, whenever one of my friends asks me what he's like that is the first word that pops into my head.
Oh another thing I can talk about is this poem I wrote the other night when I was lying in bed, it's not perfect yet, but I'll let you guys in on my second draft:

Can't Sleep. Too loud.
The melodies of my life have become the silent screams for help,
 accompanied only by the pounding of my battered heart against my ribcage.
Here I lay, in the burnt foundation of the truth I had built up around me.
I toss and turn as I desperately grasp for
any comforting piece of what had once existed.
A piece of happiness, of family, of peace.
It all seems so unfamiliar, so alien, so ancient to me now.
I sit up and try and build the ashes around me into
something recognizable, but all I get is burning eyes,
stinging with tears as my dreams fade into the rubble.
Too Loud. Can't Sleep.

There, that's it, still a work in progress, but I really like it so far. :) Ummmm I think that's all I gotta say for now. I love you all!

Sincerest regards,

University Girl ;)