Ugh... Happiness

I'm gunna get straight into this....

So basically I'm just frustrated with other's happiness...... Roomie got a new boyfriend.... she's happy, which is great, but it's all she talks about and they are always together. She rubs happiness in everyone's faces, its kinda like how often she brings up cancer, except positive... I guess. Normally I wouldn't be this frustrated, but I'm still trying to fight against this depression stuff and am still very, very single (single isn't as bad as the depression, I don't really have time or emotional energy for a relationship, but still, c'mon!) As for the depression, I cried a lot last night, like until I fell asleep, then Roomie woke me up, at whatever time she finally got back to our room, just to tell me about how wonderful her night was, tell me all about how happy she is, and how excited she was that her and her new boyfriend were official. Shoot me in the face, please. I also got kinda grumpy cuz this boyfriend of hers is one of the guys I talk to occasionally and we are kinda friends, now its super weird to talk to him, cuz he's dating my roommate, ugh. This is gunna be very difficult and long for me.

Also I was texting my crazy ex today wishing him luck in the military because he enlisted on thursday, then he was somewhat of a dick and also said two creepy things. Ok so the way he was dickish was that I said I cared about everyone and he said i have a funny way of showing it (referring to how I haven't talked to him) and that two creepy things were 1) he mentioned that my name in his phone is still the nickname he had for me when we were dating... Special K. and 2) after saying I don't care, he said oh and "P.S. You still look beautiful... Saw you driving in town last weekend." Sweet intentions, but so creepy!!!!!!!! Ugh! Anyway that's all the ranting I can do right now.

Sincerely,

University Girl ;)